Thursday, September 11, 2008

September 11th

I was working on a post last night that I planned on finishing and posting today. I think I will wait until tomorrow.

I am currently watching the news report from the actual day... trying to remember what it was like when I didn't know what was going to happen next. Now I know the timeline... we know who will die next, that the Pentagon will be hit and when the towers will fall. I think I will just watch the report and remember those we, as a nation, lost. What makes me sad is that after I finish watching the report of the morning, I will get Chase ready, go to gym class, come home, put Chase down for a nap, go to the mechanic and continue life as normal. It's a bizarre feeling and I remember it well after my mom died. I couldn't imagine life moving along normally after my world had been rocked so violently. Sept 11 makes me feel the same way. Every year I am transported back to that day in 01 and I feel odd about leaving it behind when the remembrance period is over. I want to stay in that moment. It's not rational or healthy but it's a feeling I have ;~)

One thing I took from this experience is saying I love you on a regular basis. I don't get off a phone or say goodbye to Adam without telling him that I love him. I say it often but it means more and more each time.

3 comments:

AmyJean said...

I don't see y'all often, But i thought i'd take the moment to tell you that I love ya!

Vicki said...

I love you, Jess! And both your boys.

Johnnie Avocado said...

My father talks similar of how he felt as a child when Pearl Harbour happened, which was in many ways worse, plunging us into war. Our generation doesn't really know how that would have felt. I was telling Sweetie how we will have to tell Frodo about Sept.11....weird...