I was working on a post last night that I planned on finishing and posting today. I think I will wait until tomorrow.
I am currently watching the news report from the actual day... trying to remember what it was like when I didn't know what was going to happen next. Now I know the timeline... we know who will die next, that the Pentagon will be hit and when the towers will fall. I think I will just watch the report and remember those we, as a nation, lost. What makes me sad is that after I finish watching the report of the morning, I will get Chase ready, go to gym class, come home, put Chase down for a nap, go to the mechanic and continue life as normal. It's a bizarre feeling and I remember it well after my mom died. I couldn't imagine life moving along normally after my world had been rocked so violently. Sept 11 makes me feel the same way. Every year I am transported back to that day in 01 and I feel odd about leaving it behind when the remembrance period is over. I want to stay in that moment. It's not rational or healthy but it's a feeling I have ;~)
One thing I took from this experience is saying I love you on a regular basis. I don't get off a phone or say goodbye to Adam without telling him that I love him. I say it often but it means more and more each time.