Tuesday, November 14, 2006

2 years and 2 days

It's been 2 years and 2 days since my mom died. Sometimes it seems like yesterday and other times it feels like its been decades. I feel older and wiser now... like I am privy to a world that a lot aren't. There is nothing like losing immediate family to really jar your life and change you forever.

I miss her a lot... she really was my best friend.

I planned on spending the day being mopey and sullen... I wanted to leave the 12th open for me to be sad... but then it turned out that Danielle was moving back into the neighborhood, for good, on Nov 12th... then a couple things surfaced for that day and I realized that it could only be God saying that He didn't want me to be sad and full of self pity... that here on earth, there is a lot to be happy about and a lot to look forward to. So I embraced it.. and that is what I have learned in the past 2 years and 2 days... to make the clear decision to live without anger, sadness or regret. Don't get me wrong... I don't always get it right but life is too amazing not to try.

So I spent the day watching the 2 year olds in second service, chatting with friends after service, grocery shopping the heck out of Safeway with my awesome husband and helping Danielle and Adam put together a very cool computer desk. It was a good day, one that I can look back on and know that I did it right.

Now I leave you with an image of my awesome mother...

7 comments:

Rob and Danielle said...

Your mom would be proud of you! Your an amazing person, an unbelievable friend, and you notice all 'desk related' details. Hug Words, Jessi!

Johnnie Avocado said...

Awww...I'm glad your day brightened up. This sounds like trouble with you 2 together....

Vicki said...

Your mom was one awesome lady. I miss her, too. She would heartily approve of the way you spent the day. She loved life and lived it to the fullest...soooo glad that she passed the same passion onto you! Keep going for it, Jess.

Johnnie Avocado said...

What's going on? We need a life update:P

kathi said...

Babe, I'm relating a lot. Big hug.

Anonymous said...

Hey babe. I miss you. I've been thinking a lot about you - especially over these past couple of weeks. I'm glad to hear you're doing well (my only update here!)

-Rose

Anonymous said...

I can't even begin to understand how you feel. HUG from me too! That picture looks so much like you. You both stand alike. She's beautiful and so are you!

Side note: How was the pot luck Friday night?