One Year Old Today

One year ago today Adam and I were welcoming our son into the world.

From this:


To this:


Nothing has tested me as much as parenthood... nothing has made me doubt myself more than parenthood... nothing has brought me to my knees quite like parenthood. It is by far one of the hardest endeavors life gives you but in turn, there is no better feeling then just looking at him. Watching him discover something new or hit a new milestone... being able to comfort him when he is hurt, tired, scared or for absolutely no reason at all... seeing the joy on his face when Adam or I walk into a room. For these reasons and so much more, the difficulty is worth it.

Just knowing Adam and I created this gorgeous, smart, funny little boy sends my head reeling daily. I know what Adam and I used to do before Chase... we went where we wanted, slept when we wanted, ate what we wanted and did anything we darn well wanted. Now... we plan days in advance, we sleep when we can and are up by 6 daily, we eat what we would let him eat and we do whatever Chase wants to do. The strange thing is, I love this life even more. He adds this dimension to our lives that I didn't even know was missing. He is the visual love of Adam and I. I thank God nightly that he blessed us with the responsibility of raising Chase.

My beautiful one year old son.